”I think you could fall in love with anyone if you saw the parts of them that no one else gets to see. Like if you followed them around invisibly for a day and you saw them crying in their bed at night or singing to themselves as they make a sandwich or even just walking along the street and even if they were really weird and had no friends at school, I think after seeing them at their most vulnerable you wouldn’t be able to help falling in love with them.”
So cry if you need to, but I can’t stay to watch you That’s the wrong thing to do Touch if you need to, but I can’t stay to hold you That’s the wrong thing to do Talk if you need to, but I can’t stay to hear you That’s the wrong thing to do 'Cause you'll say you love me, And I’ll end up lying and say “I love you, too.” But I need someone different …
We live in a generation of not being in love and not being together, but we sure make it feel like we’re together 'cause we're scared to see each other with somebody else.
1:46:08 AM Tam Henry Le Nguyen: BTW SCRUNTINIZATION IS AN ACTUAL WORD. 1:46:11 AM Tam Henry Le Nguyen: I checked up on it 1:46:16 AM Tam Henry Le Nguyen: because i was like i’m pretty sure it’s a word 1:46:28 AM Kathrina De Leon: LOLOL that is the word i am on right now .. 1:46:28 AM Tam Henry Le Nguyen: so i dont know why it had ared line 1:46:36 AM Tam Henry Le Nguyen: nigga 1:46:43 AM Tam Henry Le Nguyen: ‘cause we x(-___-) 1:46:45 AM Tam Henry Le Nguyen: HAHAHAHH. 1:46:46 AM Kathrina De Leon: x(-__-) 1:46:47 AM Kathrina De Leon: AHAHAHA 1:46:48 AM Tam Henry Le Nguyen: OMG 1:46:48 AM Tam Henry Le Nguyen: JHOGI:HGDKLjdh 1:46:50 AM Tam Henry Le Nguyen: LOL 1:46:55 AM Tam Henry Le Nguyen: FUCK 1:47:02 AM Tam Henry Le Nguyen: YOU CANNOT GET MORE x(-__-) THAN THAT
“I told you something, and it was just for you. And you told everybody. So I learned cut out the middle man, make it all for everybody, always. Everybody can’t turn around and tell everybody. Everybody already knows; I told them. If this means there isn’t a place in my life for you or someone like you. Is it sad? Sure. But it’s a sadness I chose.”—Childish Gambino
“Human beings are funny. They long to be with the person they love but refuse to admit openly. Some are afraid to show even the slightest sign of affection because of fear. Fear that their feelings may not be recognized, or even worst, returned. But one thing about human beings puzzles me the most is their conscious effort to be connected with the object of their affection even if it kills them slowly within.”—
I complain about Freud a lot; and sometimes, through my tribulations as a humanities major, find him to be completely overrated and annoyingly obvious - but shit. Every once in a while I’ll come across something he’s written and just think: Bitch, damn. Homeboy was so in tune with his feelings and has the human mind & desires pegged right on the head. The problem is, he forces me to become tuned with my innate desires, and I don’t like it.
You know that song "Falling in Love at a Coffee Shop"?
Okay, maybe you don’t. But I like that song, so go listen to it.
Anyway, in between running around to find the obscurely located San Francisco Italian Consulate and attaining a headache because of the profusely perfumed lady sitting next to me, I had a moment of clarity today at a coffee shop. (Okay, not a real chic coffee shop. I’m not going to lie; I’m at Starbucks.)
I had a moment of clarity in which I realized that life is really fucking long, and your problems are really fucking small in comparison. The question, “Will this matter a year from now?” comes to mind. I obsess over little things. They eat at my mind because I think that they are more significant than they really are. I think the whole world is conspiring against me. Moment of clarity: it isn’t.
The world is actually trying to be my friend. I can tell because whenever I find myself in an unfamiliar place, I feel more comfortable and at peace than ever. My borderline-crazy theory is that the world wants me to discover more than I limit myself to. So when I’m constrained to the mundane and revisiting places I’ve already been to, the world induces this annoying-as-fuck headache and emotional breakdown in which I have to retreat. It’s that retreat that’s necessary. The world wants my attention.
This was basically a really long way of saying that escape is good. There is so much out there, and it feels so great to explore.
And with regards to the title of this entry … the guy standing next to me just now was really cute. But I don’t think he swings my way. And that’s okay. Because I fell in love with the ~world~ today. (JK, barf. I just needed to justify asking you all that ridiculous question and making it a blog title.)
It’s my birthday, I’ll get high if I want to 'Cant deny that I want you, but I’ll lie if I have to 'Cause you don't say you love me To your friends when they ask you Even though we both know that you do
When you’re ready, just say you’re ready When all the baggage just ain’t as heavy And the party’s over, just don’t forget me.